Saturday will mark the 5 year Anniversary of her death...Whenever I see Lupines I think of her. I noticed Lupines for the first time the day after she died.
Mom I know it's been almost 5 years that you left me. You were not only my Mom, you were my best friend. My heart broke into a thousand little pieces when I found you dead, on the floor in your room. It was like a bad dream I didn't feel like it was real. Only when I looked at you, and saw your arms in a raised position, and a smile on your face. I knew you were really happy. You where reaching out for God to take you, and so you could be with Dad again.
There has not been one day in my life, that has gone by where I don't think of you.
I often wonder if I am making you proud, or if you still think I'm crazy for running :)
I will never forget what you did for me before my race's.
You always left me little greeting cards on the table at night. So when I woke up early in the morning to run a race it let me know you cared and were happy for me. I still have all those cards, and from time to time I read them.
I wish you were still here so I can tell you in person my stories.
There are times like today it hurts so bad that you're not here.
This weekend I will celebrate and remember all the fun times we had together. I am doing this crazy training run in your memory.
I love you and miss you. I know you are the one who watches over me, and has kept me safe on the trails.
Even when I am alone running. I am not really alone because I have you with me in my hear,t and in my mind.
I love you my Momma Mia 1931-2002
My 75 mile training run goes by this spot twice. This was taken in Sunol 1 mile up from the trailhead. I use to take my Mom to fun places like Sunol. I'm happy I took her here a few times. If I didn't I wouldn't have such wonderful memories.