Saturday, September 30, 2006

YES, I'm FREAKING OUT!!! No hundred mile race this weekend! I'm learning just to deal with it! I know, I know I can't run a
hundred mile race every week. It's just so fun!! I will be back at it, in a couple weeks so for now I'm just enjoying my down time :)

Replace fear with love...
The human mind is like a fertile ground where seeds are continually being planted.
When you are impeccable with your word, your mind is no longer fertile ground for the words that come from fear; your mind is only fertile for the words that come from love.
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Friday, September 29, 2006

Round two...Today I got color added to my tattoos. One more sitting and they will be finished. I love them!!!
I am no longer a slave to drugs and alcohol..I am a slave to love, and being clean & sober
. Today I can happily say I love being me.
It took so many years to feel this way. So many people in my life have tried to push me down, change me and not allow me to be me. For the first time in my life I am in a healthy happy relationship. It feels great.
Just be yourself :)

Wisdom card...I love being me. I no longer judge or criticize myself. I am free to love who I am.
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Thursday, September 28, 2006

Night Run.......No I am not afraid! I could be, I could have fear but I don't. I could be afraid, I could fall and hurt myself at night! I could be afraid in my new relationship, I could get hurt. If I have fear from the night and the fear of falling in love, I would miss out on the beauty of the night, and the beauty of someone loving me.
Being afraid in life will only limit what I can do, and what I cannot do... I only have fear if I don't trust myself. If I trust myself, and be careful, when running at night I will be fine.
If I trust myself, and trust in the person who loves me, my heart will open more to life.
I see the beauty in the night, because I have no fear. I see the beauty in the one who loves me, because I have no fear.

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Another foggy day in Paradise.
I love this time of year it's foggy in the morning. but very warm.
Somedays I just don't feel like getting out on the trail. Today was one, but glad I did. As I was fininishing my run I saw a calf playing with a baby coyote they were chasing each other around. It really made me smile.

Wisdom card....I deserve only good in my life..I release other peoples fears and limitations. I think my own loving thoughts.

Have a beautiful day, go out and run :)

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Me in the fog on Mission Peak...
I went out just to run 6 miles but somehow decided I felt great so I ran 10 miles. My legs feel strong after run my three 100's in three weeks.

Wisdom card...I forgive myself for any wrongdoing
Guilt never makes anyone feel better, nor does it change a situation. I now stop feeling guilty. I let myself out of that prison.
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Having fun on Mt. Diablo...Thank God for having a strong man around. Randy is actually saving me from a long fall. I love action shots.
I have never had fun just hanging out with someone. With Randy everything we do becomes a fun time...He's the best.
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Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Woo hoo, three miles to go! Rio del Lago 100.
I must admit, I'm a little freaked out that I'm not running a hundred mile race this week.
I guess it's the addict in me wanting the next fix.

Wisdom card....
I create wonderful new beliefs for myself.
Life is very simple, I create my experiences by my thinking and feeling patterns.
What I believe about myself and about life becomes true for me.
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Sunday, September 24, 2006

Only those who risk going to far can possibly find out how far one can go...T.S Eliot
Rio del Lago 100 mile trail race. Here is a picture of me and Randy, me going on 40 hours with no sleep I think Randy hasn't slept for 38 hours. Funny how well I can handle lack of sleep.
I just want to thank my pacer Kathy Donafrio she was awesome even though I had my ups & downs she was fun and kept me moving. My crew Wayne(Kathy's boyfriend) Ruby (Kathy's daughter) They met me at each aid station through the night.
Also a huge thank you to Randy for coming out to support me. He went out Saturday to a gig and showed up at 4am to support & crew me. He also left me many phone message's and text messages. It really helped during my bad pacthes to know he really cared & supported me during my run.
My race went well I just took it easy. I just lived in the moment. Running three 100's in three weeks is not easy. You have to have the right mindset to be successful. Positive thinking!
My time was 26:36. I was happy with that.
My total combined time for running all 3 100's....300 miles in 90 hours 06 min.
I want to also thank all my friends who email & call to wish me luck during each race.
Next 100 San Diego looks like I have a few weeks off from 100s.
I have no idea what I'm going to do with myself! Oh, I know spend more time with Randy;)
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Friday, September 22, 2006

The love for the wilderness is more than a hunger for what is always beyond reach; it is also an experession of loyalty to earth, the earth which bore us and sustains us, the only paradise we shall ever know, the only paradise we ever need,
if only we had eyes to see.

I got that out of my Yosemite meditation book. I love it!

I know it has nothing to do with the picture, but means so much to me.

This is me & my friend Randy we go way back. We have known each other for 17 years.
We just started hanging out after not seeing each other for 13 years.
I'm just enjoying each moment we are spending together.
I thought I had a lot of tattoos :(
He has more than me! Looks like I just have to get more! Who said I was competitive ;)

Friends please send positive vibes once again for my third 100 in 3 weeks. Rio Del Lago 100. Thanks
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Thursday, September 21, 2006

Having fun hamming it up on my last long run!!
Next up Rio Del Lago 100 Saturday. Send me those positive vibes friends!!!

I'm looking at myself in a mirror in my room I've been up for 3 days. My boyfriend is fast asleep, who knows how many days he's been up.
I'm crying because I have just come to the reality I will always be a drug addict. I tell myself I can't live without speed. I accept that this will be the way I live for the rest of my life.
I'm am to weak to quit it will always have a hold on me.
I cry myself to sleep I know that this is my life!
2006 September...I am no longer that weak person I am no longer a drug addict. I am stonger then ever. I turned my life around 13 year ago.

I will celebrate this weekend running 100 miles knowing being a drug addict shaped who I am today.
Anyone can turn their life around. I did it, so I know anyone can.
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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Yosemite....The most beautiful place in the world!
I believe everything in life happens for a reason, that's just me. Everyone who has come into my life has taught me about life.
Even if wasn't a positive experiance at the time. I always later learn why I was with that person, or why I did what I did.
A special someone has come back into my life and it's a really cool thing. It's at the right time. You think you know someone, but when you're on drugs all the time ,you don'.t
Now that I'm clean, I realize I never really got to know this person. It's 12 years later and even though he's an old friend he's a new friend.
We have changed for the good in more ways then one.
I'm happy just living in the moment and being alive.

Wisdom card~
I am my own unique self..
Everyone is unigue and different. If we are like other people, then we are not expressing our own specialness.
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Monday, September 18, 2006

The look of a happy Angeles Crest 100 mile finisher!

I had a pretty good run even going into AC on 100 mile legs. I knew if I just put one foot in front of the other and kept positive I would finish.
It always takes me about 6 hours to feel like I'm into the groove of the race.
Before 20 miles I took a pretty good fall scraped my leg and really cut my hand up.
Right before the mile 53 aid station I started getting a bladder infection. I knew I had cranberry juice there and I could put it in my hand held bottle.
I wasn't drinking enough. It got better after a few hours.
I just tried to remain positve. I know all my friends were sending me vibes I could feel it.
I was really lonely during the night. There were no other runners around me. I knew at 2:15 am I would pick up Willem my pacer for the last 25 miles.

My MP3 was pretty much my pacer. I enjoyed just listening to my music and thinking about my past. I had so much going on in my head before I knew it I was at mile 69. It was cool at that aid station they had live video. I got to see my pacer and talk to him on video. Since I had never met him, it was cool to know who to look for.
I picked Willem up at mile 75 and knew this was where my race starts. It's a long climb to the next aid station. It takes between 3-4 hours to get to the aid station.
Willem was great he talked a lot which helped me up the big climb.
I got super sleepy at 5:15 in the morning I even had to sit on the ground for a couple min. I took a no doz at got going again. I wasn't feeling good and Willem had some ginger which saved me.
I was happy when we got to the aid station knowing we had only 16 miles to go.

I tried to do the math in my head when I would finish. For some reason I was off by an hour I thought I would finish in 31:45 but instead I finished in 30:41 my second fastest time.

We got to the last aid station and Jay was working and he had a vegan organic bar waiting just for me. I was very happy since I didn't have a drop bag there.

I was happy to finish in a good time. My feet were blistered and my legs were sore but I knew I could do it. Willem was awesome he kept me going. Sorry I was so quite at the end.

Thanks to all my friends who sent the vibes. Boy, did I get them when I needed them. Even though I was alone at times on the course, I really was never alone because all my wonderful friends were with me in spirit.

Next up Rio del Lago 100 this weekend!

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Sunday, September 17, 2006

Pain is pleasure... AC 100 finish time 30:41
Yes running 100 miles can hurt. Hey but getting to finish line is so sweet. It makes all the pain go away once you cross the line.
People often ask what do think of when your out running 100 miles???
I think about everything & I think about nothing.
During AC I though a lot about my past life and when I was a goth party girl. Had I not gone through all the stuff ,I went through I would of never become Catra ultrarunner.
Each day I'm grateful that I'm alive and have so many wonderful friends. Thanks to all of you who believe in me.

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Wednesday, September 13, 2006

The hardest part about running back to back to back hundreds is you don't get to train in between. I only ran two times this week. The reason I run is because I love the long training runs.
I miss running Mission Peak. If you look to the right of the picture you can see Mission Peak.
That's my favorite place to run. But for now I just run short stuff around Quarry lakes & the Alameda creek trail.

Ok friends please send me those positive vibes again this weekend.

ok here is a little toltec wisdom:::
Your word can create the most beautiful dream, or your word can destroy everything around you. Impeccability of the word only creates beauty, love, and heaven on earth.

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Goth girl turns ultrarunner.
Never in a million years would anyone think me, Catra Corbett could run 100 miles. This week has been cool it's all about connecting with people from my past. My X- drug dealer Randy emailed me. He got clean way before me and my x-bf. I just realized it's been 13 years since I got clean not 12..How time flies.

Little did I know, but in this picture I was training to be an ultrarunner. I had been up for three days. Great sleep deprivation training.

Ok Wisdom card of the day:
Each person is part of the harmonious whole...
I choose to believe that "everyone is always helpful."

Therefore, wherever I go in life, people are there to help.

Happy Trails,
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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Wasatch 100 Me and my pacers. from Left to right, Gabe, Catra & Wayne.
I just want to thank both of these guys getting me to the finish. I had a great race because of them. I also want to thank Heidi who I met during my 511 mile fast pack through the Sierras. She lives in Salt Lake and came out to crew me at three aid stations. She made me smoothies at each aid station, what more could I ask for, she rocks.

Wisdom Card of the day;;;;

Resentment, criticism, guilt, and fear come from blaming others and not taking responsibility for my own experiences.

Happy trails,
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Monday, September 11, 2006

Wasatch 100 my finish time 33:29. This was my 5th finish in 5 years of running Wasatch. It was my second fastest time. Thanks to everyone who sent me those positive vibes I got them.
This picture was taken on a very steep section that's why I'm not smiling. My feet & legs were killing me at this point. I had 11 miles to go.
That's all for now I'm off to work I'll write more later.
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Thursday, September 07, 2006

New Tattoos. It will take two more sittings to finish them. They are day of the dead figures. One is celebrating the goth in me the other the more colorful side of me. Once they are colored they will be perfect!!!

I'm off to Utah. Have a great weekend.

Wisdom card....
My spirtitual growth comes to me in way I don't quite expect. I know I am always safe.

Have a great Day!!!
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Mission Peak taken from horse heaven trail...
Wisdom card of the day;
I am in harmony with all of the people,
places, and things that surround me in this world. I am at peace.

Tomorrow I leave for Utah to run the Wasatch 100. Please send me positive vibes my friends.
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Sunday, September 03, 2006

Me glowing on Mission peak during my sunset run Saturday. :)
You're wondering what happend to my leg? I was working out with my trainer in the gym and tweeked my leg. My left area on the outside of my knee was sore. I just wore the brace in case it hurt to much. It felt fine with the brace.

What a beautiful sunset last night!
The thought card of the day.

The thoughts I choose to think and believe right now are creating my future.
These thoughts form my experiences tomorrow, next week and next year.
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Me & my nephew Aaron. I saw him running down Mission Peak last night as I was running up. I can't believe he's going to be 18 in two weeks. Boy do I feel old.
He does take after me, for his 18th b-day he's getting his first tattoo. I hope he continues to run more. I would love it at some point to have him pace me at an ultra. That would be cool.
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Friday, September 01, 2006

That's me in the portaledge 1,000 ft up on El Cap.

That picture was taken in 2003. I broke my ulna the next day in a fall.
I think El Cap is such a beautiful formation. I think the climbers that climb that rock are amazing. My dream one day is to make it all the way to the top climbing it. It will happen, because I will make it happen!!
Thought of the day...Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.
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