Tuesday, October 07, 2008

WHY FUCKING ME????That was the question this morning when I rear ended this woman on the freeway. My face after a good cry
I was just trying to get to crossfit but there was another plan for me a lesson to be learned. Not sure what yet. It was stop and go and we we were going and she slammed on her breaks out of no where. I hit her, my fault. I just need to stay strong already got the ball rolling went to the auto body shop and dealt with insurance. Still gotta come up with $500 bucks I don't have.
You know it could of been worse. I need to take the lesson and figure out what it means.
There are many wonderful people emailing me during my issues I'm going through. I want to thank all of you you are all loved by me.
There are a couple annon. ones I had to delete. It's not nice to be mean so please don't email me anymore.
I will continue to train hard. I have great friend who is willing to be my new teacher , I want to be the strongest runner and crossfitter I can be.
I thought do a run or crossfit today? The plan was both before, but with little time on my hands now. I decided to do a run with a wod ,my own thing.
Here's the WOD
Run 1 mile-50 squats
Run 1 mile-40 walking lunges
Run 1 mile- 30 burpees
Run 1 mile- 20 abs
Run 1 mile 10 push-ups

Life is a circle from childhood to childhood.
"Childhood to Childhood"
means a spiral of new beginnings. Relationships begin anew every day.
Give your attention today to renewing a relationship , initiating another spiral of
life into a life that you share with someone.


22 comments:

NanaHawk said...

When I found your blog some weeks ago I spent time going back to the beginning and read every word you had written. Since then I have followed every word and been inspired by your frankness and approach to the challenges you set yourself. Now I find myself feeling for/with you as you struggle thru the harder times. Don't let the a**holes who dis you impact your outlook (delete and forget). Stay strong. Kevin(UK)

rodney said...

Hang in there baby. It'll be okay.

leslie said...

Haters suck. Delete and forget is great advice!

One time I was in stop and go traffic on 80 heading to SF. Had younger son in my car, following husband and older son. Traffic stopped. I didn't. Rear ended my husband and kid. Lesson learned? Don't try to find the right Raffi song when you're in stop & go traffic!

Sending positive vibes and prayers from Rocklin.

kelsieann said...

Sending love and calm your way. Keep going strong.

slinky said...

Just take it as a reminder to always be on your toes when driving. I'm not being mean or anything, but I've had a couple accidents like that and I think "Hey at least no one was hurt". Better to have something like that happen with only money lost, and not a person hurt. *Hugs* though, it sucks getting in an accident.

Mike said...

Hang in there Cat! Everything is a cycle...just weather the lows...sunny days approach!

Jason said...

It's okay to feel down sometimes. I think it helps you appreciate how good the rest of your life is. I've been following your blog now for quite some time, and I have found it a big inspiration in many ways. I know you'll be back on top of things in due time.

Bruce said...

At least no one was hurt. Cars can be repaired/replaced.

mike h said...

sounds like no one got hurt ,thats a blessing, you are ok ,thats what you have insurance for,its another small bumb in the road , maybe just back off abit and give yourself a chance to react when you are driving,there are so many ways that it could have been worse,so continue to focus on all that good stuff in you life, and that you fot your warm spirt of love and hope you give all us that read your site. mike h

Heidi said...

I have never posted a comment until tonight. I've read your blog for a while and you have been so inspirational to me. I am contemplating my first ultra...26.2 might not be enough for me. I love trails and I read the stories about the joy you find in just "getting out there"!! I hope that while you are going through this tough time in your life you can just go back to that. Thanks for your blog.

Anonymous said...

I have never posted a comment until tonight. I've read your blog for a while and you have been so inspirational to me. I am contemplating my first ultra...26.2 might not be enough for me. I love trails and I read the stories about the joy you find in just "getting out there"!! I hope that while you are going through this tough time in your life you can just go back to that. Thanks for your blog.

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T Z said...

Just take the aggravations, both big and small, convert them to fuel and put them in your tank. Use them to make you stronger. Call it building character, call it "whatever does not kill me only makes me stronger", call it what you will. Just put it in it's place and build on it.

RunBubbaRun said...

Hang in there, yes, delete the negative, those are a waste of time.

I always come to your blog for inspiration to get out for a trail run. Thanks.

Sorry to hear about the car accident, but nobody got hurt, car parts can always be replaced..

Stay strong out there.

rocket00001 said...

I've been reading your blog for inspiration for a while now, and I'm sorry to read that you're going through some life issues. Your blog was a big help to me while I was going through my divorce and subsequent downward spiral. Maybe all of us can collectively be your inspiration? Regardless, we're here, and we love you. Feel free to lean on any one of us if you need to.

Timothy Chen Allen said...

Hi Catra,
I'm so sorry you're having difficulty right now.

I had a couple of near misses a few years back. A program guy turned me on to something: "when driving, only driving". Essentially it means that when I drive, I don't do anything but drive: no music, no phone, no monkey mind.

I found that when I adopted this practice, I found driving to be refreshing. Before I had found it to be frazzling.

By the way, you inspired me. I went out for a 3.5 hour run the other day. That's nothing compared to what you do, but it was about as long as I've ever run before. I really enjoyed it and am going to try to go longer.

Take care.

jb said...

Catra, that sucks. I heard a really smart Zen teacher say that we need to be present during our pain, because otherwise we miss too much of our life.
Best wishes staying present.

CoyoteGirl said...

Mean people suck. Ignore them. We all love ya.

I don't know WHAT is going on in the universe lately. We've had our share of yuck recently too. Mike's car got sideswiped by a hit and run and we just lost one of our beloved kitty cats to a car hit.

I don't know why all this crap is happening right now. I just want some good things to happen to all of us soon. XOXO -t

Fred Ecks said...

Hey now, sometimes everything happens at once, and all you're left to do is hug Rocky and go for a big run. Breathe deeply; this too shall pass! I had a similar time this past spring, when my Mom passed away, and then so did my partner's grandpa just two weeks later. In the middle of all that was a whole bunch of other insanity, and the one thing that kept me going through it all was some great running in the Angeles Crest region. There was one day I went out and just kept going. I got back around 1 AM, and the world felt better to me.

I'm looking forward to sharing the One Day with you, Catra. Bring Rocky! :-)

- Fred

MK said...

Just wanted to say, hang in there. I know it sucks, but you should also be really proud of yourself for having the courage to follow your heart and do what was right for you. I hope I can find inspiration in your courage, the same as I've found inspiration in your physical accomplishments.

Pheid said...

Catra,

You've been an inspiration to me since I've begun ultra running.

I wish you peace and send healing thoughts to both of you since your parting.

Breaking up is so hard to do - I went through a very painful one this year myself. :)

Happy trails and may our paths cross on the trails,

Connie :)

Ben, aka BadBen said...

Catra,
You're loved by a lot of us in Blogland and UltraLand. I've run with you in 100s, and know what a sweet soul you are, and what a joy you are to be around...especially when running. Know that many are inspired by you and that you are loved. That's enough for anyone.

Ben