FACE YOUR FEARS............
You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face… The danger lies in refusing to face the fear, in not daring to come to grips with it… You must make yourself succeed every time. You must do the thing you think you cannot do. Eleanor Roosevelt
Huge crossfit turn out at Quad. dipsea. It was nice to have other crossfitters try something new, like running an ultra. Myself, Robert Tuller and BMac all know what it's like to run Ultras but none of these people did until after they finished.(oops sorry Molly) Molly ran SF 1day before. They all crossed the finish line as Ultrarunner's yesterday. I talked to several of them after, and they want to run a 50 miler.
It was a beautiful day I felt slow in the beginning but really picked it up the last 14 miles. I was having a lot of issues thinking about my life and what I need to take care of.
I sometimes feel so alone in my situation. I know I shut down when I should talk about it but I feel so stressed when I think about it. I wish I could just disappear for awhile but that's not the answer. I need to face the whole bankruptcy issue.
I am getting 500 dollars less a month because one of my creditors has garnished my wages.
I got the book on how to file chapter 7 but it seems so overwhelming I'm afraid to look at it.
I am lucky I have a place to live for now. I have so much going on inside and I'm lucky I run because it helps. Life gives us many challenges and I just need to face mine.
Being out on the trail made me happy about life for the 6+ hours out there. Seeing my friends and meeting new ones made me have wonderful day out on the trail.
I finished my 12th Quad. Dipsea in 6:52 it's always my goal to run it in under 7 hours, which I did.
Thanks to all of your smiles and hellos on the trail or comments it helped me smile and have fun.
BMac of Crossfitenduarance.com and me, he's the one who really taught me how to run. Thanks for teaching me POSE Brian it has really helped me.