It's impossible to beat someone down, who has been so far down they were in a living Hell.
I have been hated by many in my life, and I have hated many as well. I hated life so much at one point I didn't want to live anymore.
I am like a Phoenix rising from the ashes.
I have lived and died. But for the past 13 years I have been so alive, I have made it through so much and am still here.
I am a true believer anyone can change their life and do all that their heart desires to do.
Have a Happy & Safe New Years eve.

What am I doing you ask. I'm heading to crossfit to get my ass kicked then I will start my 40 mile run at 6pm and run into the New year.
I love all of you.

Obstacles don't have to stop you, If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up, figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.

Almost had my first date with pukie durning a WOD.
But he canceled at the last second..LOL......
I did the 150 burpees for time. It took me 15 min. but I got through it.
Not my best look but it's my crossfit look....LOL...

I did notice my form got very sloppy half way through and I fought until the end not to have to do girl push-ups. I know I was going all the way down but I did the best I could. I made sure to at least jump to my feet and do the full jump. I want to make sure next time I do this I keep better form.

I get this certain look after I do a wod, I call it my hardcore look. I don't get it after a Ultramarathon only after a crossfit wod. Hmmm, wonder why????
For anyone that wants to try this WOD go to http://www.crossfit.com so you can see what a burpee is and give it a shot.

"All roads lead to Rome! Or in other words all paths lead to the same place. But before those paths lead us to anywhere we have to stop thinking about it and get on with it. This is a time of action and movement. Don’t worry if you make a mistake, we’re not perfect. If you realise you’ve made a mistake then make another choice and get back to the right path. Revamp objectives and approach life from another perspective.
© Stephen Haynes"

See it's not always about me..LOL....Today it was about fellow crossfitter Eric. My goal was to get him up Mission Peak. It was a succes. He made! There was a moment he thought he might not make ,it but he did.

Happy camper ,student Eric with coach Catra. He made it up the peak even with super bad cramps in his legs. Great job Eric.
One World crossfitters Eric & Catra striking a pose on Mission Peak.
Eric did mention he would go up Mission Peak again, but not after a crossfit WOD. Eric thank God we decided not to wear the 20 and 30 lb weighted vests. It could of been real ugly ;)
http://crossfitoneworld.com/

Try not to force the situation or force a resolution. If you would just wait a moment more you will be shown, or find, exactly what you are looking for. Try to use more inner guidance, in other words, your intuition or gut-feelings. You should now be evolved enough to know that you don’t always have to have all the answers or know the future in advance in order to attain success and avoid failure. Trust in yourself and the universe and everything will turn out as it is supposed to.
© Stephen Haynes"

So I get a post from a person who didn't leave their name. Saying I should stop posting pictures of myself. And talking about myself on my blog, and they wish I would talk about something more interesting.
LOL...Ok so whoever you are, this is called Dirt Diva's blog..WHY?? Because it's about me..DUH. So don't visit. I only want positive and motivated people on my blog. Thank you very much!!!!
FYI ANON. If you look through the pictures in the past 7 days or so. There's pictures of my friends and my dog, and yes there is a story about my 43 hour run that some find interesting.
Ok anon you can go back to sitting on your butt eating crappy food and watching T.V
Sorry friends about the rant.

Alameda creek run before crossfit.
I told my crossfit instructor Freddy I would wear these for a crossfit work one day. I'm still training in them..LOL...
These abs are not from running. They are from crossfit workouts. No crappy food in this body ;)
Crossfit body 100%

Tell at least one person you love them today!

THE SECRET TO HAPPINESS IS NOT IN DOING WHAT ONE LIKES TO DO, BUT IN LIKING WHAT ONE DOES.
Darkness-some call it danger or uncertaninty or evil-is necessary for enlightenment, because it is only through confronting fear and anger that a higher energy a truer state of being, is born.
My weight training partner Eric at crossfit is oh so strong. He can even pick my fat butt up..LOL...My butt is getting a little fat ,so Eric was trying to help me with that problem by biting it off....LOL

"Be grateful for a new lease of life. Long-standing situations, stalemates or dead ends now come to an end. The universe has taken note of your situation and is prepared to repair or correct it. You for your part must be prepared to let go and to co-operate with the universal energy. The past is now beginning to fade and regeneration is beginning. Accept all that is going to be offered, you will be delighted with how it will change your life.
© Stephen Haynes"

I'm so happy to be me. Fit as f**k at 43.
These are photo's from my past. My past shaped me into who I am today. I have no regrets.
All drugged up and no place to go in Hollywood. 95
Me & my club I use to put on once a month in Fremont. The Avant garde dance palace. I'm the one with the black mo hawk.
I think 1989.
Past out and drunk 1990.
One of the times I quit drinking for a month. Heading out for a run. 1991 ish

Blast from the past.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL MY FRIENDS.
I hope Santa was good to everyone. I got a ab mat, pull-up bar, jump-rope, REI gift cards, money, clothes and flower print set covers for my Nitro.

Obstacles are those frightful things when you take your eyes off your goals.
Take nothing but pictures, leave nothing but footprints, Kill nothing but time.

To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides.
The only way to have a friend is to be one.
A friend is one who knows us but loves us anyway.

Happy Birthday to me...43 years old, wow I have been on this planet for 43 years that to me is pretty darn cool.
I must thank my parents for bringing me into this world. I truly am blessed for having such loving parents. I do really miss them. I only got to spend 17 of my years with my father, not long enough. He died at 48 of a massive heart attack.
I know he is the one who has always guided me out of my dark times into the light. I know I have made him proud. I feel his energy around me often. I know he is always watching his little peanut, and has seen her blossom into something amazing. My Mom , my best friend has always been there for me in life, and in the after life. In my darkest hours she has helped pick me up and brought me to the light. Coming to me often in my dreams ,giving me the answers I need to guide me through this life. I love you Momma mia. You will always be my biggest fan.
I miss them both so much during the holidays especially my b-day. If it wasn't for them I would not be here. I will someday join them, but until then I am living life to the fullest.
The look of a 43 year old. I look at this and think I look better then when I was in my 20's, now.

There is no better way to spend your birthday then doing a wod, with some hot, sweaty, crossfit studs. Lucky single me. Oh yeah, and my hot sexy friend Julia ;)
Me & Rocky doing 4.3 miles in celebration of my offical birthday.
Beautiful Sunol what more can I say.
The little man tearing it up on the Ohlone trail.

SOME MAKE IT HAPPEN, SOME WATCH IT HAPPEN, AND SOME SAY, "WHAT HAPPENED?"

Last set of pictures from the 43 hour b-day run
Joe & Catra at the turn around point for Joe. He headed back and finished 100 miles on the Ohlone trail
A very exhausted Catra. Antonia you were awesome for putting up with me. Wishing I was at home in bed.
This was taking on the steps of a very old cemetary. I fit right in don't you think, I look dead????

43 hour b-day run pictures

Sun setting along the Ohlone trail in Sunol
Happy Campers heading out from Jerry's aid station mile 52
Joe, Antonia, Catra and Fast Jerry.
Antonia modeling the latest in super light sleeping bag.
I wish I was turning 30 years old instead of 43. If so I would of finished right then. ;)

Catra's 43 hour b-day run.

Left, Dave, Julia, Catra(b-day girl), Mike, Radu and 100k B-day boy Fast Jerry.
Jerry was being very bad so Julia and I had to teach him a lesson.
Sometime you just can't explain what's going on.
Jerry & me on a peak that is suppose to be higher then Rose Peak. Destinys peak.

The white stuff is snow in the Sierras.

I had an awesome turn out. I must mention Jerry ran 100k( 62 miles) he turned 62 so we added his b-day run with my b-day run. Joe Pham became the 3rd person to run 100 miles out in the Ohlone wilderness it was the 12th time I have run 100 miles or more along the trail. Radu ran 50 miles, Julia 40, Dave & Mike, 31, Fred 30, Mylinh, 40 and Antonia 30.

This year I had a great turn out of friends. We had a blast. It was a very cold morning on Friday. With the wind chill I think it never got above 40. The trail was frozen and iced over. It was super windy on our way to Del Valle area. I took everyone on an adventure to explore Destinys peak. It's a peak that is suppose to be higher then Rose. The area is kinda creepy abandoned trailers, looks like they might have a couple Meth labs out there.

I was pretty cold most of the day. I was getting a little freaked, that once it got dark I would freeze to death. I wanted to make it back to Sunol mile 42 before it was really late. We got there around 7pm, I think.

I had my warm pants waiting for me :)

We headed back out to Mission Peak and to Jerrys mile 52 for hot soup and food.

Julia bailed in Sunol she was having a foot issue and We left Dave & Mike who were just going one way at Maggies camp. Joe & I stayed together since we were going long. Jerry took off with Radu towards Fremont. The Peak was very windy & cold. Thank god Joe had a extra flash-light because mine went out on a tough rocky section. I was excited to get to Jerry's because my friend Antonia was there and was going to head out with us.

We fueled up at Jerry's and headed out into the night. Oh yeah I also added lots more clothing and a hat.

Jerry went back out and would turn around 5 miles out and head back home to get his total of 62 miles in.

Jerry left us at 2:30am.

Antonia, Joe and I got to Sunol and we're freezing. I stuffed hand warmers in my gloves that's how cold it was. We headed out and at around 3:45am Antonia mentioned she was to tired to go out for our 13 mile loop in Sunol. I told her about the bathrooms there, they would make a good shelter. I also gave her my hand warmers and told her I had a garbage bag in my resupply to put over her.

I felt bad leaving her, but she would be fine.

Joe and I headed out. It was a beautiful clear night but very cold. I was worried about Joe because he kept falling asleep on his feet. A couple times I asked him a question and he said he didn't hear me right away because he was sleep walking..LOL....I was ahead of him so at times I would wait for him, and I would see his headlamp weaving, it was him sleep walking.

There were lot's of night creatures out, keeping me on my toes with their calls in the wild. Joe and I heard a really weird animal crying out it was a little freaky because I don't know what kind of animal it was. It could of been from another planet.

We made it back to Sunol at 7:45am I knocked on the door of the restroom to wake Antonia up. She didn't sleep well because it was cold. She had run in place in the bathroom to keep warm, she had quite the epic. She knew if she came out it would be an adventure with me ;)

We headed to the resupply and to visit my favorite ranger Neil who was getting ready for his work day.

He invited us into the office, but we declined the offer it was way to cold outside and way to warm inside. If we went I was afraid we wouldn't come out.

We headed out to Jerry's aid station. My legs were starting to get sore 75 miles into it. Wonder why??? ;)

On the way down the peak we ran into Mylinh and she was going to hook up with Joe and I on our way back towards Sunol.

Got to Jerry's at hour 30 only 13 more hours to go WOO HOO.

We left Antonia so she could sleep, and I would be back to have her pace me the last 3.5 hours.

We headed out Joe would turn around in 6 miles and then head back to the parking lot. That would be his 100 mile point. I was more excited for him being out there because he has wanted to finish 100 miles out on the trail. He had attempted it a couple times but blew up both times. I was really focused on seeing him be succesful. I knew I could do the 43 hours out there but really wanted my friend Joe get a hundred mile finish out on the Ohlone trail.

Mylinh , Joe's wife met up with us. When Joe got to his turn around point she decided to stay with me and head into Sunol. I was happy because I was very tired and I really needed her energy.

We had fun chatting, and catching up stuff. We saw Neil in Sunol and chatted a bit.

It was going to be another freezing night. We ran back to Fremont. My legs were getting really, really sore. I was having a tough time running down hill my knees really hurt because of all the pounding.

We got down to the parking lot and I said good-bye to Mylinh. I resupplied out of my vehicle and headed back towards the peak. I did a loop and headed back to Jerry's to get Antonia. I changed into warmer clothes, because I knew my legs were to trashed to run the last 3 hours, all I could do was walk. I decided we would cruz the streets of Fremont. We headed to Starbucks, I was going to get a tea but it was closed :( I was trying to set little goals to keep me going. I was so exhausted and delerious. Antonia was awesome she just talked and talked. All I could do was listen. I needed that, just someone to talk and tell me stories. As long as she didn't mind that I couldn't answer her back, it was all good. I really couldn't string a sentance together. I decited we would head to Safeway so I could get a Odwalla. It would work out perfect time wise ,and we would head back to stanford ave.

I had to sit for a few min. because my neck and shoulder were killing me. We had past by a car and a couple was making out. We were down the street from them and we noticed the break lights going on and off. They must of been really going at it..LOL.. A securty gaurd drove by when Antonia was massaging my shoulder. We decited to leave just in case he stopped, and I had to explain what we were doing.

We headed out again. I was happy when 43 hours came. I just wanted to get home and go to sleep.

I left Antonia and Jerry and drove away. Last year I told Jerry I would never do hours again. This year I didn't say that ;) Yes, of course I will run 44 hours next year. Well, unless I can figure out better challenge.

I really have to thank everyone because without all my wonderful friends I couldn't do this type of crazy stuff.

"~ A hero is an ordinary individual who finds the strength to persevere and endure in spite of overwhelming obstacles. ~"

Happy but exhausted 43 hour runner girl
I will write a report later, but first I'm headed off to work. Yes, I'm crazy working the day after my 43 hour b-day run. My legs are sore but other then that I feel great. Thanks to all my wonderful friends for coming out. Also thanks to all my blog followers for texting me. Really helped with my energy level during the run.

"Things are not always what they appear, so examine everything carefully. What looks very positive could be negative and what looks negative could in fact be positive. The universe is a strange place and so things don’t always have to go according to your plan to actually be beneficial. This is a time to rely upon the Self, so examine and let go of support systems that no longer serve you.
© Stephen Haynes"

The White Rabbit put on his spectacles. "Where shall I begin, please your Majesty?" he asked. "Begin at the beginning, " the King said, very gravely, "and go on till you come to the end; then stop."
That's just what I will do during my b-day run, I will begin at the beginning go to the end then stop. I got that qoute from Alice in Wonderland.
I'm looking forward to my 43 hour adventure Just like Alice's adventure in Alice in Wonderland.

Rocky & I went to Sunol to do my supply drop. We went on a little run. Rocky got to visit Lucy one of his many GF's. Lucy belongs to Kelly my second favorite Ranger(Neil you're still my favorite). I just want to take a moment to thank Kelly and EBRP police to allow me and my friends to be out there when the park is closed. It really means alot to me.

Thanks to all my friends who will join me the next couple days you all rock, I love all of you.

Well off to bed...Got to get up way to early........................Feel free to text me some positive messages along the way especially during the night 510-585-6559

"Rash decisions or actions undertaken without forethought could result in a dead-end. Don’t just blindly forge ahead. Re-examine how you have dealt with situations in the past, they may not be the way to deal with things now. Perhaps new thinking, or a new way of doing things, is what is called for now. In spite of everything you will learn from your experience and shake off those blocks or obstacles. Sometimes you need more perspective so stand back and take a second look.
© Stephen Haynes"