I realized today that I'd been the only one holding our relationship together because the moment I let go, it fell apart completely.

This week has been a whirlwind of emotions just trying to understand what went wrong.
I hoped Andy would change or try to at least make some effort to save what we had.
That is what hurts me the most, he gave up and was willing to fight for me, for us.
So I had to let go.
I am missing our fun times we shared and those funny things only couples understand , like the funny names we called each other.
I miss the Andy I first met. This past year we were never on the same page let alone the same book ;-(
I know my higher power has a plan for me. But for now I remain a little lonely and lost.